Morning thoughts....

Life can get a head of you sometimes. Worrying about the future, about stuff you have no control over. 


We all do it, drive ourselves nuts over all the pressures in life but in reality things change in a second so why worry about all this none sense in advance?  The way we were brought up, raised, how society has breed us, has trained our brains to start stressing about what we want to be as adults, figure out a school to go to, find a boyfriend to marry, get a good job to save and buy a house, start a family all at a young age. I have a vivid memory from kindergarten of drawing an outline of myself and creating it into the person I want to be when I grow up, I was Miss America obviously. Haha. Like, who ever thought that at 17 years old kids should know what they want to be as an adult? They are forced to find a college and choose a major that they are supposed to follow for the rest of their lives. No wonder a large majority end up in a different field then they study or go back to school for something different. At that age most of us aren't ready to make such long term decisions, we are still trying to figure out life and enjoy being young. Yet when we don't have it all figured it out at by a certain age, we are forced to believe we are failing at life. When in fact we haven't
failed at all,  just taking our time to make the right choice for us. So much pressure, so much to think about, no wonder people can't deal with it and never go to school or get real life jobs or even stay in mindless jobs for 20-30 years miserable.

Schmape

On Friday, I left for Delaware with some of the best ladies around, Jordan, Ashley, Tiffany, Lisa and Shae. We rented an SUV (which we decided to name the RAPE VAN, later called the Schmape Van) and headed south on the Turnpike for Lewes Delaware to visit Jordan's home town and her lovely parents.  The weekend was full of great friends, the beach, laughing, drinking, dancing, eating and shufflin'.  It was a time were good friends became great friends and inside jokes and funny stories were born.

Another Monday

It's Monday; Saturday and Sunday have flown by yet again and now its back to work.  Fun!  NOT.

Went to a street fair in Nyack yesterday; besides being extremely hot and causing a great deal of sweat, the fair gave me a great idea.  What if I tested the culinary waters by serving panini's during a street fair?  It could be a perfect way to see if the masses would enjoy my cooking.

Next step...figuring out all the details and seeing if it would be worth it.

My passion and drive are pushing me into the culinary direction.....now all I need to do is figure it all out and start this dream up....
I pray it's that simple.

TGIF

Woohoo!  It's finally Friday!  Lots of big things planned for this weekend; showing my apartment (looking for a new roommate), cooking Ahi Tuna steaks for dinner and making an Asian inspired pasta salad tonight.  The pasta salad is for my Aunt Barbara's annual Summer BBQ on Saturday.  She has a big pool, slide and diving board, so it should be lots of fun to hang with the family, drink a little and eat great food.  Then on Sunday I have my little cousin Lauren's graduation party, she just graduated HS.

Now off to a work lunch at a lovely East Village beer garden called Loreley.  Apparently they have some pretty sweet soft pretzels.  I'll keep you posted.....

Till then a few more pics I took last week....

Breathe

Ever wonder why time seems to go by so quickly or how it seems to take forever when you're staring at a clock?  Every year around this time I think, how is it already mid-summer?  Next thing you know it'll be Fall, then Christmas....it's crazy how its just goes by in the blink of an eye.

It's easy to say that I'll live in the moment,take advantage of the day and what it has to offer but its actually really hard to do when you have a full-time job that requires you to be there till about 7p or later every night.  And when your weekends are filled with plans for yourself or family things. Don't get me wrong, I love spending time with my family, I'm not one of those people who dread it.  I just want to do so many things all at once. There are only so many days in a week and weeks in a month and summer is only a few months long.  In my mind the easy solution would be to not plan anything and just FLOW but in reality doing anything requires planning.  So it gets kinda tricky.  Plus you have obligations to your family, birthdays, summer parties, graduations, just plain BBQ's.....How do you manage the time and take advantage of the warm summer days when we have them?

Birthdays, Family & Traditions

 This is Kevin, the man of my dreams....

 My first successful attempt at creating depth of field with my camera.  This flower is actually really pretty and different.

The following pics are of a dead bug, another really pretty flower (Kev's mom has a great garden in the backyard) and some rocks that I found in a store while roaming around Nyack.

The Start of Something New.....

I've always wanted to blog, but I'm not the greatest writer in the world so my new idea is to photo blog.  Please ignore the grammatical errors I make and enjoy the pictures I post.

I recently received a Canon Rebel XS camera from my lovely boyfriend Kevin for my birthday.  I honestly don't know much about how to use it but I love taking pictures.  I'm going to post various pictures of my life and food as I learn how to master the camera.

At the age of 28, something seemed to turn in my life.  I'm looking for direction or significance and I felt it was time to start something new.  I feel somewhat like a lost soul, working at the same company for almost 5 years now, (not loving the job) and the various directions I want to take range from the culinary world to a nurse.  So you can see I'm a but confused.  Maybe posting my pictures, thoughts, passions and life will help guide me to where I'm supposed to be.